I
let go of my 7 years relationship. He was my first boyfriend and my
first love. I was young, innocent and passive. I gave him everything and
I was always there for him.
I accepted him and understood everything
about him, his weakness, ego, dislikes and beliefs. He broke up with me
many times , he was always angry at me and everytime we had an argument,
I was always the first person to apologize.
I loved him with all of me
but I was dumb to hold on to the relationship that only caused me pain
and tears for seven years.
On
January 2016, I went to Japan and lived there for several months and
for a few months we were exchanging messages, we were fine until one
day, he never messaged me back. He was not answering my calls for a week
and I thought maybe he was just busy with his work so I waited and
waited for a few months but there was not a single message from him.
On
October 2016, I flew back to Manila from Tokyo and I knew then that
something was wrong. While I was planning to visit him, my best friend
told me that he has a new relationship with another woman. My heart was
broken to tiny pieces, I couldn't move and everything reminded me of
him. I was depressed, lonely and many times thought about ending my
life. In my dreams he was always there. I was angry at him, I hated him.
Then
a year later, on 2017, I met a kind and loving man. He's a
psychotherapist and one of the reasons that I am still here. He’s my
counselor, my family and home. He told me to be brave, to not dwell on
the past, to move on and never regret anything. He took care of me, he
inspired me to write again, he gave me hope and new direction. We fell
in love and got married last year, we now have a baby girl.
On
our wedding day, I looked back and told myself , “things didn't work
out with my ex because a better man is on the way, a greater love is
about to happen.”
Without
my ex and my brokenhearted , I wouldn't meet my husband. My past and
best mistakes led me to the love of my life: my family.
-Meghan Luce
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